Spiritual Experience Collection

My very first 'download' or vision as I have been calling them was back in 2019 when I was between work meetings. One meeting had ended and I had about 30 minutes before the next meeting. At that point I worked from home, so between meetings I would get up and walk around, visit the bathroom or the fridge, or just organize my notes for the next meeting. This particular time, I dont recall what I was doing when suddenly I was in outer space!

I looked around the blackness of space and there were stars shooting passed me. And I realized that they had memories in the center of them, memories that were playing like movies and surrounded by light. Far away, they only appeared to be light, but close up I could see such detail as to realize it was light but super defined, super specific data to me and my life. And these lightbeams of memories were coming from the massive explosion in front of me. Instantly I associated the event with the big bang, as it was the only concept I knew to compare it to. But it wasn't violent, it wasn't loud and chaotic. It was like a central glow that became stars as pieces broke away from it.

I have never seen anything like it before or since, but I think about it alot. Originally the vision happened so incredibly fast that it lasted only about a second and I instantly bursted into tears. It was fast! It was intense! I accidentally exploded my face. My partner at the time rushed in when he heard a noise. I think he was confused and decided whatever had happened, it was my problem to deal with. LoL So true!!! Because it took me about 2 months of going over the vision again and again in my mind to be able to slow it done enough to really get a good look at everything.

I have come to several different conclusions, but the one that stays strong with me is... I am not a lucky roll of the dice. Just like there is meaning to stories, there is meaning to my life story. The events of my life are happening exactly as planned, and if I can step beside myself to give the data a real, non subjective look I might just be able to make sense of it. The thing about understanding our own patterns is the possibility of predicting future patterns and trends. That is where I am now. There is no shame in my reactions or my past understandings. There is a little pride though, when I look back and see who I was before I was able to see myself.